Tis the time for the rotation of the holidays and time to reflect on being thankful, remembering the past, looking toward the future, and considering the lint in my navel. Well, none there; so I will get to the serious stuff. Please ignore this if you don’t want to read some kind of retrospective. I just feel compelled.
The Past
Another year goes by with remembering the DaveR from Levanta. I still miss the DaveR unfortunately. That pain has lessened but I don’t think it ever truly goes away. Back in 2006, I went to his farewell party at Cal. It was a touching tribute to a man who touched many lives. Who can really say who we touch for the better or worse? After watching the people chronicle DaveR’s life and times, it came to me he made the true measure of his life even if cut tragically short. Cancer is evil folks.
If there is one bright spot its that the link to DaveR’s blog outlived the company I found him at. That is a good thing. Linuxcare was a fun, vibrant, funky thing. Levanta was sad. One I will miss forever; the other is barely a passing memory. Again, for another year, bye DaveR. Still miss you.
In another entry of being thankful for what you have or have not. Its okay to not have certain things. I was actually quite thankful to be gone from home the time I was. Too many serious events happening there at a personal relationship level that I would never blog about. It gave me time to consider what I am thankful for. Now I am approaching leaving India and am doing so with a bit of trepidation. What happened is both in the past and now; which takes me to the next entry.
The Present
Thanks to Celestix Networks! I am thankful for that job, those people, the caring and empathy and consideration my boss, CEO, President, work colleagues; everyone has shown me. Its the greatest job with the greatest little company that could, will, and can. I enjoy the work tremendously, guys. Thanks!
The Future (if it actually exists)
In a favored book of mine, Edward Abbey maintains he searched for a long time for the underlying reality of things only to figure out that reality truly does not exist and there is no underlying reality. There is desert sand, death, life. Desert Solitaire was a work that touched a few aspects of my life in the past, reaches to the present, and manages to touch the future. I spent years wandering deserts and valleys, forests, and the great plains. The future beckons me with decisions to be made, factors to consider, issues that need resolution. But I have also come to realize much like a few heroes I have that we are truly placed here alone. We come in that way and we leave that way. We can surround ourselves with friends but there is that private place that they cannot intrude. Perhaps by knowing both, the few people who have entered my world mean that much more to me. I don’t see that changing in the future. I am first and foremost a private person. After watching the movie “Into the Wild”, it came to me even as Alexander SuperTramp searched for meaning and finally abandoned himself to Alaska that we all search for that same wildness. It may be found differently but we all rebel and walk the world’s roads. Its our future call. The siren call to our indomitable spirits. But we must move forth alone. There is no reality folks. And we all know that space and time as a continuum is a false paradigm.
The Closure…
Happy day to remember families, friends, and what they mean. Treasure the few that touch your life; but remember you do walk a solitary path. If anyone ever says “trust me; I have your best interests at heart” run for the hills. For they surely don’t .



















