This is my 500th post to this weblog. I’ve been at this for about 3 years now and often I have managed a blog post a day but when work kicks up a bit or things change, I seem to go down to a few a week. The weblog has always been a personal set of feelings even though I like blogging about Linux and open source, science, technology. Its meant to be nothing more or less than a personal reflection. I leave the big pronouncements up to the top 100 because they are more worthy and have weightier things to tell us all than me with my extremely personal “news, views, and subterfuge”.
I’ve actually been blogging for longer but those other blog posts are lost in the time past. I still have an Advogato presence and I read it every so often to remind myself that this blog really has not evolved that far.
For about 6 years total and 3 years with this content, I’ve been catching various and unusual flights of fancy, bits of realism, science, technology, fantasy. Most or all emanating from my own curious grasp on life and reality. I’ve reached the decision point that there really is no reality and that’s okay. We just need the concept because without it, the universe is too big and honking. We also need to believe in a thing which we can define. The universe is beyond definition; but then again so are our feelings.
I’ll probably carry on blogging even though I believe that the actual reason we all blog has shifted subtly from empowering social institutions that seemed to spring up to help us catalog, link, and manage. Sites like Technorati seem to have a place. But I’d openly question what we use them for? We know we need to have special institutions that help us mark our way through the kazillion or so weblogs and find that signal in the noise.
I’d openly admit to being part of the noise. My signal ratio is low and I cannot help it. Perhaps one day, this blog will become some other social fabric; but I’ll always remember what RWR told me more than a few times:
“Remember where you are and what you are doing”
I’m trying RWR. So much has changed that marking that reality is difficult at times. But you were always there for me then. Now I know where I need to be when I am there and I have an idea these days what I should do. This weblog is not an anchor or a social statement. Its a mile marker and a directional beacon for me.
