One has to always move forward I believe. Taking steps sideways or backwards gets a person nowhere. I always have to feel that the blog is a journey of self-discovery and nothing more or less. Sometimes with work and play and family pressures one feels that forward movement is blocked. It really is not and I think one can find the things that make them feel that way and remove them. I don’t have a a “rant” or a “tirade” this morning to roll out. Its more a case of empathy for people I have worked with and those that in some capacity I still do. Simply put, I feel sorry for you guys and you know who you are. You’ll find soon enough that the thing you thought was real is really just a image and that’s gonna shock ya. But I think by then I will have traveled forward to yet other sunrises and planetary scapes.
I had the opportunity this weekend to give a great deal of thought (some alcohol induced) to the current situation. I don’t remember the last time I could do that or wanted to.
I have the desire to move forward and not take any side steps because when one does that she loses sight of the real progress. Its not really about work any more. Its about the things I do that I find value in. A thing of value can arrive with little or no monetary renumeration and you do the thing because it has other merits. Other things become less than valuable and they are associated with larger amount of cash back; but you make the same value decision but in reverse to recolor your world and leave that part out.
If you, gentle reader, find yourself in the same positions, ask yourself the leading questions.
Is it worth my while?
Should I be doing this given the other things I want to do?
Does it give me that feeling of value?
If you answer no to any of these, then why the fuck do it? Be the judge of yourself. If you find value and you don’t make a world of cash, why do you continue? Is it because the less cash is offset by the true value? One has to reach out to reach in. Study the realities and get back to me. You guys out there and you know who you are, you’ll do that too. But I have this feeling I’ll be elsewhere by then finding a new value.
